I know that it has been a while since I have posted. I am taking a moment to purge a little before I continue with the tasks set before me today.
I am fully wrapped in a season of change. I am in a serious detox in my life. I have lost track of me. I have become very distracted by life around me that the things that I know are truly my responsiblilty have suffered. The parts of my life that I am committed to have been put on the back burner due to things that are not priority or truly important. I have become so "busy" in my denial. I have become so obessed with negative things and have forgotten who I am, really.
I am trying to stay focused now. Let go of the things that I can't change and their negative affect on me. Address the things that I need to take charge of and stop the denial. I have been to proud to admit defeat, to let go of things that I think I can handle.
I am burrowing hard to get to the core. It is a slow and painful process. Picking and chipping away at the unnecessary. Watching as the usless debris falls away, grasping after it as though there might be something to salvage when it's is of no true value to me. Inside my head, I'm screaming "Let it go", but it is deep rooted and there are serious emotional attachments.
Just as I think I see things clearly and think that the rebuilding can begin, I find more to be purged. The rebuilding is my goal and my motivation. Clearing out all the junk seems redundant but with out this cleansing process the building process is not as strong as it should be.