Old Friends

I felt a friend slip away today. If I'm honest with myself, it happened months ago. 

As I evaluated my relationships I realize that there have been many. Time and distance can fade a friendship. A neighbor, a co-worker, group member. Friends that in a particular season of life when you had their back and they had yours. You were a team but life happens. It was real and you will always be friendly but things change. 

I always want to ask "did I do something to make them mad" but I know in my heart that I didn't. I can point the finger at myself in blame for letting my life suck me in so that I didn't give value to what once was. 

I am not friendless nor are they. Friendless no. Replaced by something else, yes. A new relationship, a new baby, a job, a move, something happy and healthy.  

Part if me mourns for the fun times. In my heart I cherish that I could experience happy memories and then allow myself to let go. 

I remember. I cherish the love and the laughter. I do love you and hope the best for you. We will keep in touch as we move through to the next phase of life. We had our day and I will cherish it forever. You are part of me and I am who I am today because you touched my life.